Thursday, February 25, 2016


I found this picture on Tumblr and It's currently my wallpaper, jealous? you should be, it's very relaxing to look at. I want to visit here, wherever it is. I want to be more outdoorsy, I want to explore with my babies!
I've been thinking a lot about the family I saw in the park. I'm sure that what Wyatt said about it being the "Island way" has some truth to it. However, I'm certain that theres more to it. You don't have to grow up in Hawaii to be chill and I'm sure there are some Hawaiin's that have no chill (maybe?).

I've been racking my brain over this. Then today it hit me, faith. I was listening to a conference talk while nursing Sammy (I count that as scripture study) and I thought that possibly a laid back relaxed lifestyle can stem from faith. I was thinking of my worries and how much they weigh me down. In the grand scheme of things these worries aren't that big of a deal, but I think I could be a lot happier without them regardless. Take my kids for example, isn't the Lord vested in seeing them happy? If I try my best won't he make up for the rest? Maybe instead of feeding my stresses and worries I should feed my faith. I can bring my worries to him and let him carry the weight of them.

 It's scary, putting your faith in the hands of the Lord. It's infinitely easier to worry and doubt. I've always had a difficult time putting my trust in the Lord. I've grown to be a lot better at it, but it's still really hard when the big questions come in to play. Death for example, I don't wanna die! I do have a sense of peace knowing I'll be with my family forever but I want to be around in mortality as well. I wanna raise my babies! Illness is another example, Menieres Disease is no joke! You don't mess around with it. When I was first diagnosed a friend told me "Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay it's not the end". That's good and all but jeez isn't anyone else worried about what happens between beginning to end? Okay, I'm getting off track. The point is, I can start off putting my faith in the Lord with small matters, and work my way up the big ones. Maybe I can think of it like a muscle. You need to strengthen it, work it. That's all.


PS. Post title brought to you by this picture I found on Tumblr. This basically sums up my life

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