Tuesday, July 14, 2015

I swear I've seen a lot of stuff in my life... but that was AWESOME!!

I am so tired, let me be clear, I am exhausted. I knew being a mother would mean having long nights and running on less sleep but I never imagined this. 
These past two weeks have been so hard on me. I am running on a lot less sleep than I need, not to mention I'm pregnant, and it's surprising just how tiring building a human actually is. 
Tonight specifically I feel helpless with my exhaustion. I felt bone tired around midnight and I was so lucky because Danny was tired too. Hooray! I talked on the phone with Wyatt for about five minutes then decided I literally could not even. I said goodnight, rolled over and closed my eyes to drift off into a nice heavy sleep! To my extreme dismay Danny told me he needed to pee pee. I thought about explaining to him how he's wearing a pull up and can in fact pee in his pull up. However, I didn't want to confuse him so there we go to the bathroom and he's not happy. He's incredibly tired and he absolutely wants both his pull up and his pants taken completely off before he can pee (which means we have to put them both on afterwards). We get back to the room and Danny's upset, he needs a good fifteen minutes before settling down. He wanted his back rubbed, and to snuggle up really close to me. After about fifteen minutes he finally fell asleep. Leaving me both relieved and fully awake.
I'm not kidding when I say I could have thrown up out of sheer frustration/exhaustion. My ears rang in protest and began filling up with pressure. Sound dramatic? Well it is. These are the moments where life really beats me up. I need to take a minute to say that my hardship is all relative. I thank the Lord everyday that I have my eyesight, hearing and mobility. I cherish moments with Danny and can literally not imagine my life without him. I love him, I love Wyatt. I can't wait to see Wyatt again! He is an incredible support to me and my best friend. 
But for right now, in this moment I'm in a slump. Ba hum bug 



Ps I'm really not loving my nightly visits to the bathroom. When I'm finally starting to fall asleep I have to pee! Throw me a bone!

PPS. Today's Post title was brought to you by Tommy Boy. I needed something to brighten my dark night and this was beyond perfect! 











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