Monday, August 29, 2011

Stinky Pinky

So as of lately I have had many "conclusiones"... I don't exactly know how good I will be at writting all my thoughts down but I will try.
I struggle SO much with my self esteem, mainly because I am a shadow of the overacheving, pretty, friendly girl I once was. It's hard for me to think about that and how I haven't done too well at that. It is hard to keep my chin up when I remember this, and I know that Wyatt is always telling me that I don't half to save the world to feel good about myself... which I have actually come to find out is necessary for my happiness... now I can't seem to understand why on earth i would go from being pretty cool to not being cool at all... basically. I just can't seem to find an excuse for that... So this thought has been eating away at me for quite some time... but I feel like I have finally awoken from this sad slumber of poor self image and self esteem. I mean FREAK God gave me SO much to work with, I mean if you look at my history I have been good at anything I have tried... so what's my excuse? Wyatt keeps telling me that I need to develop a better self-esteem... which I find extremely hard... I mean where do you get that?! It's not like it just grows on trees! But finally, today I believe, and a little bit of friday... I have come to realize I have nothing to complain about! I have truly a wonderful life! on Pinterest I read a quote that says "Don't let comparison ruin your happiness" how true that is, I should have that tattooed to the back of my eyelids. I have been feeling so jealous of some girls that I feel have been handed everything in life. But when I was blog stalking one of them I realized that this particular girl would probably be happy poor OR rich, because she is just so happy to be around! It was startling to me! I am lacking NOTHING in my life to be amazing... I should be just as happy (or sad I guess) as the richest man in the world (or woman... sorry I'm tired).
First off Wyatt is SO SUPPORTIVE, he's my number one fan! he wipes my tears away (he thinks their gross) :) and he has been feeding my self worth since before we got married, He bought me a prime rib dinner on friday! just cuz I had never tried it! Lets face it he is my sunshine when clouds are gray.
My mom is also extreemly supportive, she is an amazing friend and support)... she has always thought I could do anything I wanted to and I know that I can look to her for support.
Lastly, one fan I hardly ever acknowledge is the Lord. He really does try to give me things that make me happy and even though i haven't gotten to know him as well as I (or he) would like to, I still have faith in the quiet member of my fan club. I need to work on this relationship, because I am sure that when i unlock that friendship my possibilities truly are endless.... With his help you can do many things.... hmm interesting. Anyways...
I believe that this is the begining of a whole new Cindy. A cindy who isn't dependant on whether or not her las name is Almaraz or Anthony (I know it's been two years and I'm STILL adjusting) ... a new Cindy who is AWESOME, and not by the standards of anyone else but myself and my fan club. I met the famous Chelsei Todd the other day and yes in case you are wondering she IS as pretty as she looks in this picture below...
Yes, I know she is gorgeous! Now this girl was a Jazz Cheerleader AND a student at UCDH at the same time, impossible? I would think so... she is EXTREEMLY nice, down to earth and actually real. And even when you think she can't get anybetter, SHE CAN! She just got accepted in to Dental school... freakin DENTAL school! No big deal "I'm pretty, intelligent, kind, and REAL". after I met her I rubbed the stars out of my eyes, made a note to self to add her as a friend on facebook, and decideed that by the time I was her age (26? 27?) I wanted to be like her! I believe I can be... and I will.


ps. stinky pinky makes wyatt and I laugh nonstop, the first time I heard in on Youtube with Wyatt we about died...Wyatt, I love you

Monday, August 15, 2011

I need a horse!

I have so much to be grateful for! My life has been pretty darn good. Wyatt today did all the laundry, folded it, and even made the bed!! He was so sweet to do all of that. I know that we don't always have a perfect life but we are really getting better at. Wyatt makes it SO easy to be nice to and want to do things for! Work has been hectic to say the least, and it's not easy to get up early. I'm actually getting a little burnt out. Especially because Leah has been gone so long it's hard to do two peoples work.
But I mean I really can't complain. Wyatt has been so sweet to me. I love him so much. I can barely stand it sometimes. I really actually cry at night sometimes because I love him so much! Total night and day difference from a few months ago!
 Life has been nice hanging out with Wyatt or my mom. The two people who are my bestest friends!
Wyatt and I went to go watch Thor again on saturday and had popcorn and a coke, which we never do. We also went to that super expensive crepe place, way overrated. and overpriced.
Oh yeah... lauren got married as well. It was special to be there. I love her : ) I also got to hang out with Sarah a little.


ps. today's quote was brought to you by none other than Thor himself! :)
pp. We started playing stinky pinky together and it's actually kind of fun

Thursday, August 11, 2011

My period will now be officially referred to as Shark Week

So lately nothing too big has happened. Just still working and trying to figure out what it is that I want with life. Wyatt has been working from 6:30 to 11:30 pm and it's tough! I miss him so much and I feel as though I never get to see him :(

Luckily my mom has been around a lot. We spend every evening together and she makes things better like...

*She picks me up for lunch at the park- totally makes my day
*We shop in the afternoon
*We've done crafts

So many other things I can't even begin telling you how much fun I've had with her. But I sure miss my man !


ps. today quote comes from pinterest, apparently the uterus looks like a sharks brain. Genius!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

I would rather have breast milk than a million melons!

So surprisingly it hasn't been that long since I last blogged. I am happy to report that my expedition to becoming rubber is going better than I thought it would. For example today {work basically blew up and two students were kind of badgering Leah and I} while I did get worked up, I didn't get as worked up as I would have. When I felt myself getting worked up I said to myself "this is your chance to not let things bother, this is your chance to be more like rubber" and I did it! I was definitely more like rubber.So that's happy news! In other news I am thinking about taking a Dental Assisting class. I figured it could be useful in the long run. So I am looking into that, however I would have to pick either that or R.O.C. if they'll even let me do that. If I am made to choose between the two I might pick R.O.C.  Just hopefully I would be able to get along with everyone.
My mom and I had a good conversation about not letting petty things bother us today. which was very necessary towards the end of work. I realized that I really need to change my attitude or else I'll never be happy! There will always be little annoying things in life. The trick is I need to not let them bother me so much. I need to choose to be happy instead of mad. Anywho I think that's about it for today.



ps. today's quote was brought to you by this creepy 8 year old I saw on a youtube video today who is still breast feeding! ew!

P.p.S. Yes as you can see in the above picture (fall 2008) Wyatt and I did indeed break the honor code. I let him in my room... we are sinners