Friday, May 13, 2011

My high school reunion is coming up, I think I can still fit into my old sense of inferiority

Weell, my graduation pictures got here, and I am SUPER happy with them! I think they look great... however my diploma hasn't gotten here AND I still don't have a job. I am beginning to wonder if I am ever going to find one... it's a little sad to think about.

Lately I have been doing a lot of soul searching and I feel like I REALLY need to be happy with my simple glorious life. I feel like these past few weeks has been some type of apprentinship to know how to be completely happy with life! I have come a long way, I'm not saying I haven't. When I first got married I think I cried every night and I got into fights with Wyatt ALL the time.... and now we are actually happy together when we go to sleep and when we wake up in the morning... we actually cuddle! I have come such a long ways with my lack of happiness it's insane. However :( I still feel like I compare my life SO MUCH like just seeing a certain person who will be left unamed on facebook makes me cringe. Which brings me to another thing, when I see people on facebook, most people, It makes me cringe with some type of embarrassement or emotional pain. I'm not anywhere exotic, I'm not smart, overlly pretty, or employed. I feel like NOTHING so I feel like facebook only allows me to compare my life even more than I already do... on a brighter note I get to see Lupe tonight and Annika in a couple of days, really it gives me so much hope. ...



PS. our quote was brought to you by Conan O Brien :) fitting for how I am currently feeling.

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