Wednesday, December 1, 2010

A champion for Chini

The world ended yesterday, yes that wasn't a typo it really ended. My world ended. My marriage fell apart. Really it was horrible, I don't think I have ever hurt that much.
Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they did, get really bad. After that they got worse, and worse, and worse.
So at around 2 or 3 A.M. when I felt a knot of despair form in the pit of my stomach I felt so alone. It was a pretty icky feeling.
After hours of sobbing I decided to try prayer, which is something most people would try first, but not me, of course not me. so I prayed and I said "Heavenly Father, Please help me, I am SO lonely I need help, and I feel sad I need a hug."
All at once I felt better, I felt loved and wanted, I also felt like someone was trying to tell me "Don't you get it? I'll champion you! I'm your friend and will always lend a listening ear. You see when it boils down to it, it's you and me. I care about you so much, and understand you like no one else ever. I mean it, I'll never leave you and I've felt the feelings you're feeling, it will be ok"
That gave me so much comfort I was able to wake up today.
I hope that this Champion of mine and I become best friends, because he might be my only friend in a a couple of days here.


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